My partner's departute is marginally near. I could even see myself alone for quite a long time. "Should I worry?" That question always been popping inside my head these days. For a feeling of alleviation, I often think and believe on the promises we had said to each other. And I am confident that those promises are true.
But the thing that affects me much is not about the promises but it's on how can I teach myself being independent without my partner's presence. Is it my fault that I let myself too reliable in his nearness? Realizing that I've been spoiling myself made an immense impact emotionally. This past weeks, everytime we're together, it made me very happy though but conversely, there's a feeling of fear. Fear of remembering these days someday. Certainly, I'll be missing my partner immeasurably. Whew! Especially when reminiscing the day we first met plus the fact that his leaving very soon, damn! It made me fall into tears. I guess you guys understand the emotions I have. It's hard but I should brazen up myself...
IT WOULD BE DAMN FUNNY IF THINGS MIGHT HAPPEN! I JUST CAN'T IMAGINE!
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